23 9 / 2014

The day’s supposed to be full of glee. There’s supposed to be cakes, foods and a party. Yet, this day for us isn’t like that. It’s your 1st month baby and mommy misses you so. It is only in my dreams that I will be spending this day of the month happy, with you. I was then excite to celebrate your 1st, 2nd, 3rd month, 1st, 2nd, 3rd birthday and the coming birthdays to come. It’s supposed to be our happiest days. We were supposed to celebrate. But now, your birthdays will be my most painful days since I wouldn’t be able to celebrate it with you. I love you so much, my Eli. Been missing you since the day you left mommy. I love you always and forever, angel. πŸ˜ŠπŸ’‹πŸ‘Ό

21 9 / 2014

Goodnight, my Eli. I know how happy you are with the way things are going between me and daddy. How I wish that you are able to share the feeling with us. Unfortunately, you cannot. Still, you are an important factor in every event that has happened and will happen in our lives. We love you so much, anak. I miss you.

20 9 / 2014

Mommy’s boquet for you, baby. I love you. Missed you yesterday. Missing you everyday.

Mommy’s boquet for you, baby. I love you. Missed you yesterday. Missing you everyday.

14 9 / 2014

A void that can never ever be filled. Good morning anak! Mommy misses you so much! I love you! β€οΈπŸ’‹πŸ‘Ό

A void that can never ever be filled. Good morning anak! Mommy misses you so much! I love you! β€οΈπŸ’‹πŸ‘Ό

14 9 / 2014

Moments like this when suddenly, I feel like crying and breaking down. When all of a sudden, I’ll miss you so much that every piece of me breaks. I love you so much, anak. I miss you. Can’t go on a day without feeling this emptiness in my life since you’ve left me. I miss you so much, my Eli. Mommy loves you and will never forget you, baby. How I wish you were here to stay. πŸ˜”πŸ˜’πŸ˜₯πŸ’”πŸ‘Ό

06 9 / 2014

'Tis the 9th day since you left us, and I miss you oh so much. I love you so much, my Eli. Please stay beside mommy all the time.

04 9 / 2014

Good morning, my Eli. It’s only been a week and the pain feels like it will last forever. I miss you so much baby. I’ll never be contented with hugging and smelling the things you left with mommy. I want you to be the one that i am cuddling right now, angel. I love you so much.

04 9 / 2014

I love you so much, my Eli Cade! I know that you do feel how much mommy misses you.

03 9 / 2014

That you were only lent for a very short time. Thought I’ll be given the chance to take care of you for years, however, I was just only given not more then a month. A few days, I was only given a few days, truly precious few days of my life. Days that I will forever treasure. Days that I will never seem to forget. Days that I will always be thankful for. Days that I will never regret having. Days containing mixtures of bitter, painful but mostly sweet memories. Days that I was able to feel and touch my piece of heaven. I love you, Eli!